This says it all...

Friday...

was a pretty good day.
Went to the Dr for a stress test that wasn't as bad as thought it would be, just a lot of waiting (part of the stress?). Will have results mid-end next week. Got results of my bloodwork, hemoglobin at 14 (not anemic!), sugar a little high at 104 (?), thyroid's good, cholesterol high at 236 (he said we'll work on that after surgery, I agree!).
Got my homework done. Found out I will be doing MORE writing next quarter - essay & critical thinking :p
Hung out w/ the kids last night. Was concerned about smoking but I really didn't feel the NEED, thought about having one or just a drag but even that wasn't strong enough. So I remain smoke-free :)
I'm going thru some emotional changes that I don't know how to verbalize yet, though I really think I need to. Feeling old and neutered, like the joy I had in living has fizzled and now I'm just an observer w/ memories of the fun it was...she says as the tears roll down her face :/
Well, that's all I can handle for now...I will go take my position on the couch for the next few hours or so.....

Back to the Doctor....

Was supposed to be just a quick b/p check and refill my pills for another 6 months....yes, my b/p has been high even on the pills...and yes, my feet have been swelling a lot lately....and yes, I am having major surgery soon....so what does he do???? and simple little EKG, which has a little blip that may or may not be something....so back the Dr Friday afternoon for a Nuclear Medicine Stress Exam...where they will inject me w/ dye that will make my heart glow in the dark before i start the treadmill and after i collapse on the treadmill....all w/o eating or drinking anything for 6 hours prior (scheduled for 12:30p.m.)!!??

Other than that I'm pretty good I guess, still not smoking...yeah me ;)
Ignoring a new toothache.
Wondering why I'm bothering w/ OKcupid dating site....I've chatted w/ one guy a little, but i don't really have the energy to be all cute & perky ;p
I don't have homework...I'm heading for the TV and some vege-time....

no cares...no woes...FREEEEEEE

AAARRRGGGHHH

Withdrawals are hitting....I want a cigarette....but I DON'T want a cigarette more!!! Feeling a bit tense and uptight, ready to bite someones head off if they're not careful. I may just stay in my room tonight to keep Debra and Cedar safe!!

Now I have to do my stupid homework!! Recall a situation in which someone was trying to persuade you. How effective was the argument? What could have made the argument more persuasive?.....ha....I can't post it here or in class...and it didn't take much persuading!!!

And I wanted to add a pic to this and my @&#*&^ computer keeps freezing....

Okay...that's enough complaining for one night....till we meet again :)

OOPS...Missed Posting Yesterday :-o

It was pretty uneventful for a Monday. Was not on the computer at all last night...pretty crazy!! Just watched tv with Debra til midnight and went to bed...and up before 6 :-/ I WANT TO SLEEP-IN LIKE "NORMAL" PEOPLE!!!!!

K-kids back from their world tour...

I'm happy to say they didn't change as much as I thought they might. Mina's hair is a little lighter and skin a little darker but the same wonderful feisty girl that left her 2 months ago. Nikola is wanting to sit up on his own more and almost rolling over when laying on his back.

Tina, Mina, & Nikola were baptised and Tina & Ivan renewed their wedding vows in the family's church (Orthodox Christian). Their pics should be posted pretty soon too, I think I saw Ivan working on them when I left there today.

I've been really blah and very lethargic since yesterday...lack of nicotine? poor diet? had to stop new meds? or just lazy....take your pic. But no cigarettes since 11a.m. yesterday, would probably have one if I had them but the urge/desire isn't that strong, I just want one.

Okay...off to do homework....have a pleasant evening, everyone :)

They're home safe and sound!!!!

Tina finally called at 8:40 last night, they just walked in the door, the kids were fast asleep and they were exhausted! So I am now waiting for a call that they are up and about and I will grab my camera and go see my babies!!!!!